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And
then the sea creature rose up, and with its remaining tentacle...." Groo's
hand flew through the air to illustrate. "Cordy!" Her wandering attention was suddenly riveted on
the opening door. "Angel?" He stumbled over the threshold, one hand clutched
to his chest, the other clenched around the doorframe. "Cordy," he
repeated. And then he collapsed. She leapt off the couch, leaving Groo sitting,
hand in the air, on the velvet pouf. "Oh, my God!" Her feet flew over the
pentagram-stained floor. "What happened?" His coattail flared around him like bat wings and
bunched beneath her knees. Under her hand his fingers were alarmingly cool. "Connor," he groaned.
"Shotgun." She paled. "Shotgun?" Her gaze flew to
his hand, covered with blood, then to the front of his shirt, darkened with it.
"Oh, my God. Connor shot you?" "Yeah...Connor...." His brows pulled
together in confusion. "No. I mean...." Groo made it to the door. "Angel. You do not
look well." Angel coughed, spattering blood in a fine mist.
"Don't miss a trick, do you?" he gasped. Cordy stumbled to her feet. "The
couch," she said. "Get him to the couch!" "But, Princess, are you sure moving him
is...." "Dammit, Groo, now!" She ran from the
room, bee-lining for the first aid kit. Groo helped Angel to his feet. "You are
weak. I will carry you." "No." Angel shook his head woozily.
"Thanks." He lunged, letting momentum carry him instead, and collapsed
on the cushion Groo had just abandoned. Gunn and Fred ran out of the office and into the
lobby. "Oh, Angel, you're hurt," Fred cried. Groo clapped her on the arm. "You do not
miss a trick," he said, sounding the words out like a student at a foreign
language fair. Fred, glasses askew, blinked up at him. "Uh,
thanks. I think." "Definitely seen ya look better," Gunn
noted. "Here." He put gentle hands on Angel's shoulders. "Cordy's
gonna want your coat off." He helped Angel slide the duster off, grimacing
when he saw the hole in the back. "Unless you know a demon with a tail
*and* a cashmere fetish, I'd say this coat's pretty much a goner." Angel dropped his chin to his chest and closed
his eyes. "Funny. Just the other day, Lorne was telling me about a demon
who...." He drifted into silence. Cordy ran back into the room, first aid kit in
hand, and skidded to a halt next to Angel. "You got his coat off. Good."
She dropped the kit onto the couch next to him and elbowed Gunn out of the way.
"Oh, my God. He passed out." She shook his shoulder roughly.
"Angel, can you hear me?" He opened one eye. "Loud and clear," he
said, wryly. "Thank God." She knelt between his
legs, grabbed his shirt with both hands, and yanked. It ripped down the placket,
scattering buttons. He grunted. "Dammit, I liked that
shirt." Trembling hands pushed the ripped material down
his arms and off, then tossed it into a blood-stained heap on the floor.
"I'll buy you another," she promised. "Can you lift your
arms?" He tried and winced. "Ow." A line appeared between her brows. "Plan B,
then." She glanced up at Groo. "Get me the scissors. In my desk
drawer." Fred reached for Gunn's hand. "What
happened?" Gunn shrugged. "Shotgun," Cordy said. "Something
about Connor. I don't know the details." She took the scissors from Groo
and slit Angel's t-shirt open from waist to neck. She eased the shirt off his
chest, flinching when she saw that several of the pellets had actually exited. "God," she breathed. "How close
were you?" "Twenty feet, maybe," Angel said,
letting his head fall against her shoulder. "You idiot," she said, peeling the
cotton gently off his arms. When she got to his back she bit her lip. "And
I repeat: You idiot." The t-shirt was ripped clean through and the
charred edges clung to the open wound. She pulled it gingerly away. "This
is really bad, Angel," she bit out. "What were you thinking?" "Connor," he whispered. "They
were...shooting at...." "Okay, shhhh," she said, voice
softening. "We'll talk about it later." She glanced at Gunn who stood,
staring grimly at the raw, shredded meat of Angel's back. "Guys," she said, backing out of
Angel's embrace. "I need you to move him upstairs. Put him face down on the
bed. We have to get the pellets out before he heals over them." Gunn nodded and pulled Angel to his feet.
"Think you can make it?" Angel's glance slid from Gunn to Groo and back
again. "Alternative is for you to carry me?" At Gunn's nod, he
grimaced. "I think I can make it." "Right," Gunn replied, mouth twitching. Cordy stood, first aid kit in hand, toe tapping
impatiently on the terrazzo. "And while you guys stand here yapping,
Angel's turning into a metal detector's wet dream." "We're goin'," Gunn said. They started slowly up the stairs, Fred on their
heels. Cordy ran ahead, opening the door to Angel's room. It was still a mess:
cracked walls, broken plaster and in the middle, the unmade bed. She kicked
aside the brushes and buckets and grabbed a plastic tarp to spread on the
mattress. "Put him down," she said, pointing to
the tarp. "It's about as unclean as you can get, but at least it'll keep
the blood off of the bed." Gunn and Groo guided a sheet-white, trembling
Angel to the mattress. Groo stepped back, but Gunn stayed at Angel's side,
holding him upright. "Fred," Cordy said. "Go get some
blood. There's vodka under the sink. Make a Bloody Mary and mix it really
strong." "I get a drink?" Angel asked, mouth
stretched thin. Pearls of sweat beaded his upper lip. "Yeah. Because you were such a good boy and
got a hole blown in your back," she retorted. "Shoes off," she
said, crouching and unlacing the heavy boots. She pulled them free and dropped
them with a clunk. Fred handed Cordy a tall glass, full of red
liquid. "Here," she said, giving it to Angel.
"Drink it all." She held his hands steady while he gulped. After he got about half the glass down he
stopped. "Enough," he said. He set it on the bedside table and wiped
his mouth with the back of his hand. "Fine. We'll just save the rest for
later," Cordy said. She and Gunn helped him lie down face first on the bed.
"Fred, make sure he's comfortable. This may take awhile. Gunn, move that
garbage can over here." Groo stood to the side, hands hanging loosely, as
he watched the rest of the crew complete their tasks. Cordy popped the lid on the first aid kit. What
had started out as a high-end kit had grown over the years to include supplies
that no hospital had ever imagined using. But this procedure didn't require any
special potions or unguents, just a pair of surgical pliers, a cast-iron stomach
and a steady hand. "Anyone prone to fainting at the sight of
blood, leave now," said Cordy. Hardly a group you had to worry about that
with. But the room was feeling slightly claustrophobic. "Angel, you know
this is gonna hurt like hell," she said, pulling on her gloves and taking
the pliers and a small, very sharp knife. He grunted into the pillow. She opened the alcohol and poured it over both
instruments to sterilize the metal, ignoring the way it puddled in the small
garbage can. There'd be a lot worse stuff in there before the night was over. "You gonna need someone to hold you
down?" she asked, already knowing his answer. There was a pause, then the shake of his head.
"No," he said. "Just you." She looked up. "Everybody out." "Princess," Groo said, suddenly
realizing what Cordy intended. "Surely you cannot...." She smiled. "I'll be fine, Groo." She
glanced at Fred. "Why don't you and Gunn take Groo downstairs. Get some
dinner or something. I'll call you when this is done." She let out a deep breath when she heard the door
close behind them. "He means well," she said, almost apologetically. "Uh huh," Angel remarked. "He just doesn't understand...." She
blew her bangs out of her eyes with a huff. "You feeling the alcohol
yet?" "A little." "Just a little?" she asked, sitting
next to him and brushing her fingers gently over his shoulder. "You want me
to bring the bottle?" "No. Just get 'em out before they become
permanently attached." Cordy nodded. "Gonna have to work
fast." "Fine. Great. Whatever," he said,
wincing as he bent his elbows and rested his hands by his head. "You got
enough room?" She nodded. "Plenty." She leaned over his bare back to get a closer
look at the wound. It was ugly. About four inches wide, a nasty spatter of holes
made by a shell full of pellets, most of which had gone in, but hadn't come out.
Buried down in layers of muscle, she was going to have to extract them one piece
at a time. She drew a deep breath to steady herself.
"Okay. Gotta clean this off so I can see what I'm doing," she said,
reaching for a large, needleless syringe and a bottle of distilled water.
"You ready for a little fun?" "Aren't I always?" he asked, glancing
back at her. Her nose wrinkled. "Oh, yeah. You're Mr. Fun
Guy. The personification of fun," she said, loading the syringe with
practiced hands. His chuckle turned into a grunt of pain. She capped the water and put the bottle back down
on the table. "Here goes nothing?" she asked, holding the syringe over
his back. He nodded, mouth grim. She gently dispensed the water over the wound,
cupping her gloved hand around his waist to steady him when he jerked. Then she
set the syringe aside and took a piece of gauze. She wiped the wound carefully,
and the gauze was quickly drenched in blood, bits of t-shirt and other things
she really didn't want to consider. From what she could see so far, a couple of
pellets had gone wide, but weren't very deep. The rest had concentrated in a
pretty tight circle in the middle of his back, just behind his heart. "You're lucky they weren't silver," she
said sternly. "You'd be dust." "I guess. Right now I almost wish they had
been." "I can imagine." She grimaced.
"Well, I can't, really. But you know what I mean." She dropped the
first piece of wet gauze to the can with a plop and started on the second. By
the fifth, she could see the wound clearly. "Looks like it stopped
bleeding." "The side benefit of missing dinner,"
he said wryly. She snorted. "Speaking of, you want another
dose of vodka before I start?" He nodded and rolled gingerly to his side.
"Probably a good idea." He picked up the glass and drank the rest in
three deep swallows. "That Fred. She mixes a hell of a drink," he
said, rolling back onto his stomach. "Maybe she and Lorne should open a night
club," Cordy said, straightening the tarp underneath him. "Scary thought," he replied, drawing
his hands up next to his head again. Cordy picked up the knife, the tweezers and a
handful of gauze. "You ready?" "As I'll ever be." "Scoot over," she said. "I'm
coming up." He slid toward the middle of the bed and grunted
when she straddled his hips. "You been eating more than usual?" She huffed. "I can walk away right now.
You'll be rattling like a box of BBs for the rest of your unlife." "I meant it as a compliment." "No wonder you have such crappy luck with
women." She dropped the gauze and the tools on the tarp next to his head,
where she could reach them easily. "Thought you were trying to make me feel
better, not worse." "You started it." She picked up the
knife, rested her left palm gently on his shoulder and took a deep breath.
"I'm gonna start with the ones on the outside and work my way in," she
said, dipping the knife toward his upper back where the first of the pellets had
gone wide. "Good plan." She slid the knife deftly over his skin, opening
the first entry hole wide enough to get the tweezers in. Angel hissed. "Okay?" A thin line of blood welled up
on the puckered flesh. She brushed it away with a piece of gauze. "Peachy." She laid the knife down, picked up the tweezers,
and went hunting for the pellet. It was only about an eighth of an inch deep,
not even into the heaviest part of the muscle. It slid out easily and she
dropped it over the edge of the bed and into the garbage can. It landed with a
flat little ping. Angel went silent as she worked her way around,
clockwise, cutting as little as possible and digging only as much as she needed
to. "I have to say, working with you has certainly improved my nursing
skills," she said conversationally. "Always glad to help," he muttered
around clenched teeth. "Maybe I should buy one of those little
uniforms for times like this. You know, the white dress, little apron with the
red cross on it?" She dropped another pellet into the can. "I bet I'd
look great in one of those hats." "If you're trying to jump-start my libido,
it's working." She snorted. "I've got a pair of tweezers
buried in your back, and you're thinking about sex?" Another pellet pinged.
They were getting to the harder part now. Best to keep them both talking so
they'd forget the fact that he was hurting like hell and that it was only gonna
get worse. "I'm a vampire. Pain always makes me think
about sex," he panted. "You're a sick, sick man," she said,
wincing as she opened another long ribbon of flesh with the scalpel-sharp knife. He grunted. "That hurt." "Oh, please. I can hardly be the first to
comment on your perverse nature." "I meant the knife." She shifted on his haunches. "Man, this
better not take too long. My legs are gonna cramp." Angel gasped when she scooped out three pellets
at a time. "God. Are we there yet?" "We've barely even started," she said
with a sigh. She set the tweezers aside. "I should have told Fred to leave
the vodka." "I'd have to drink a whole lot of vodka--" "Not for you, dumbass," she huffed. "Oh, right." She went back to work, and for nearly 40 minutes
she pulled shotgun pellets from his flesh. They grew silent as the grisly task
took more and more of their attention. Angel was tense with pain, his lips bloody where
he bit them to keep from screaming. She shifted, trying not to put too much
pressure on his back. "You're fine," he said. "No, it's okay," she muttered absently,
feeling her quads burn as she balanced above him. She wiped sweat off her face
with her blood-spattered shirtsleeve. "I am gonna need a massage when this
is all over, though," she said, rolling her head from side to side. "Too bad I've lost the feeling in my
arms," Angel slurred. "Otherwise, I'd volunteer." He sounded like she felt, stretched nearly to his
limits. She took another breath. "Only a few left," she said in her
best cheerleader's voice. "Can you do it?" "Can you?" She took a breath, shook out her hands. "I'm
good." "Okay. Finish it." She wiped him down with another piece of gauze.
"These are the deepest. Looks like they hit a couple of ribs. There's some
bone and stuff in here." She paused. "And I can't believe I just said
that." "Cordy Chase, MD." Angel hissed.
"Jesus, do you have to dig those things so deep?" "Sorry, sorry," she said, wincing when
she hit bone. "The bones shattered, but they're already healing. Not too
bad, considering." "So you say." She scooped out the few remaining pieces of metal
then set the tweezers down. Her fingers had cramped around the handles and her
mouth twisted in pain as she worked them loose. The blood flowed back in,
leaving behind a pin-prickly haze. "Gonna rinse you off." She reloaded the
syringe then squirted a cooling jet of water into the wound, washing out the
blood and the debris. It already looked better, Angel's magical healing powers
being what they were. But she still liked to do things a certain way. "A
little Neosporin for good measure?" she asked, drying the wound carefully. It was a game they played. She bought the stuff
in economy-sized tubes, and he let her slather it on, despite the fact that they
both knew it didn't work on dead flesh. "Sure. If it'll make you feel better." She opened the tube and squirted a glob onto her
fingertips. "Strangely enough, it does." She coated the wound
liberally then pulled a large gauze pad from the first-aid kit and ripped it
open. She placed the gauze gently on his skin and taped it down. Then she slid off and stood next to the bed. Her
legs trembled with fatigue and her wrists and neck were cramping. As far as
Angel-injuries went, this wasn't the worst, but it came pretty damn close. He was sweaty and trembling, but she could tell
he was starting to calm down, which made her feel a whole lot better. "You
okay? You want another drink?" she asked, stomping her feet to get the
circulation going in her legs again. "'m fine," he mumbled, rubbing his face
against the pillow. "Jus' tired." "Get some sleep, then," she said,
peeling the gloves off and stroking his forehead gently. "'kay," he said. "Nurse
Cordy." She laughed quietly and reached over him to
collect the knife and the tweezers. Then she went to the bathroom and dumped
them in the sink. She returned to the bedroom, collecting the rest
of her supplies and putting the kit back together. Angel snored softly as she
worked, relaxing her even further. It was only when she bent over to pick up the
garbage can and saw the hundreds of pellets and the wads of bloody gauze that
she realized how hellish the last hour had been. She slid to the floor and rested her head on her
knees. "Hey," he slurred, brushing his hand
across her shoulder. "You okay?" "Mmmm," she replied, because she knew
the lump in her throat was too big to talk around. She felt his hand on the back of her neck, and it
felt so cool and real and solid that she rolled her head back and trapped him
against her. "Cordy," he whispered. He shifted on
the tarp and the plastic rattled. "Yeah?" She bent her head forward and
wiped her eyes with her fingertips. "Come up here." "But...Groo. I mean, I've gotta tell the
others...." "Shhh," he said. She heard the plastic
rattle again then saw it float down to land on the floor next to her.
"They'll figure it out eventually. Come on, you're wiped out." She sighed then pushed herself to her feet.
"I need to go clean up." "Leave it," he said. "But my hands...." "Wash 'em later." "Angel...." His hand swung out and grabbed her wrist, his
fingers encircling her slim arm like a loose bracelet. "Shhh," he said
again, pulling her down. "Come on. Take off your shoes." She gave up. He was right. She was tired. And she
wasn't ready to leave him just yet. She kicked off her shoes. He rolled onto his side and opened his eyes.
"You're really gonna stay?" he murmured. She slid in next to him, sighed when she turned
on her side and snuggled close. "Despite my better judgment, yes." They hadn't been together like this since the
night Fred nearly lost her head to those clacking demons. Some nights, even now,
she'd close her eyes and hear Connor's butterfly-breath, feel Angel's hand
beneath hers. Angel wrapped his arm around her waist and
spooned her tightly against him. She felt his lips on her hair like a breeze and
she closed her eyes and simply breathed. "I'm glad you're okay," she said after
a few minutes. "Mmm," he said. "Much better
now." His fingers stroked her stomach absently. Even through the burnt, bitter smell of charred
wood and the crisp odor of new paint she could smell him. Sweat, blood, and the
comforting, indefinable scent that was Angel. Tucked against his bare chest,
wrapped in his scent, she drifted off. "Cordy." She twitched awake at the sound of his voice.
"Hmph?" He sighed. "Thanks." "We aim to please," she said, blinking
sleepily. "Too bad the other guy didn't." He chuckled into her hair then went quiet again,
his breathing slow and regular. Her eyelids were too heavy to keep open, so she
let them slide shut, let his breathing take her under. Angel stretched, tucked a foot over hers and
twined their legs companionably. "Cordy?" he mumbled again. "Mmm...." She was drifting, floating. His thumb strummed her ribs. "Nobody heals
me like you do." His hand slipped under the hem of her shirt and his cool
palm rested softly against the bare skin of her belly. "Mmm.... Feels good," she slurred. He sighed, long and deep, buried his face in her
hair. "So tired...." His words were a whisper in the quiet room. Somewhere in the back of her mind she knew there
was a reason she shouldn't be here, like this, with him. But she just couldn't
seem to.... Couldn't seem to.... She slid off the deep end and met him in the
silence. NOTE: Thanks to Carm for doing her
very first beta ever (go, Carm!) and to Ebonbird for the one-word title and for
keeping me and Cordy honest.
End.